Somber and Dreams

Somber and Dreams (Week 8)

As a person who easily gets tired when I am disheartened over something, I never thought that I would come to a point that I will realize that I am starting to get tired of this routine. Also, I never realized that people with the kind of routine as mine were still so diligent to work, and how do they manage to stay alive?

Having a regular shift of 7:30am to 4:30pm, one hour travel from office to my house because of heavy traffic, all I end up doing when I get home is eat and sleep, then wake up the next morning with the same routine, over and over again. After getting sick and being absent for three straight days, I went back the next week to realize that, “Is this the job that I would like to do after I graduate?”, “Do I want this, for real?”, “If I want to, then why am I feeling down all of a sudden?” These are just a few of the many questions that I have in mind. I don’t understand, I can do the tasks every single day, but I always end up feeling like it was not my best in compare with my previous tasks. This is not me, I told myself. This may not be the job that I would love to do, dealing with numbers and all, managing things, then what do I want? And once and for all, it is way too late to give up on something that is bound to finish in months’ time.

I must admit, Management Accounting (or even Accountancy) was the course that I never expected to be in. However, as the time passed by and I get to learn the things that deals with being an accountant, I turned to like the idea of me being a cost executive or even an auditor in the future. No regrets, I told myself. But then when I get into the real practice, I realized that I have to have the immense kind of dedication to do the job, and with dedication comes great responsibility and encouragement to be one. I don’t even know if I am making any sense right now, but to make it clear, I don’t even understand what I am feeling right now. I am in the middle of hating and loving my job.

Later this week I was tasked to laminate labels for our office, which is needed for 5S practice. The only laminator available is inside the Applications and Technology Group, so I went there and started to laminate. While waiting for the machine to work, I observed the employees work and that ignited an idea in my mind. Suddenly, I liked the idea of working for this department.

The Applications Group is in charge of making sure that the products created by the company is according to the consumer’s taste. Basically, they are the ones who creates the products themselves, since the Cabuyao Factory has all the milk products, they create products that are in line with milk products. Every day, they do tests and trials of their products, and you may not know, but every day they also try new variants to place in the growing market of the food industry.

I realized that I want to become a part of the team, creating products and selling it in the market. These people are no ordinary people, because they are just a few of the brilliant minds behind the infamous products of Nestle. But then of course, it’s not that possible for me to become a part of it, because I am not a major in Nutrition or in Food Technology. Anyways, it’s not a sin to dream, yes?